It will come, prepare your self

Posted by Sofia On Saturday, May 21, 2011 0 comments

Month will comes and I still have faith, it will comes to me. Maybe not the last one, but maybe the new one. I trust God's plan. Allah will gives me the best in the good time.
I feel stronger now. Thank you for Allah who always be next to me in happy and sad situation.. I'm trying to find the secret behind this case.

I don't know exactly, how many times I have the feeling like that. Lil bit, maybe, disappointed for the situation like now. Yeah, maybe this is the answer from God, my precious Lord. God knows what the best for me, even maybe I feel it's not good enough for me.
From the beginning I had this feeling, any doubt to make this feeling stay longer in my heart. Time goes by, and perhaps he's not good enough for me. Hate to write those words, but I just wanna release this feeling.
Losing you, Insya Allah, will not make me down or hopeless.
I never expect will be next to you, but maybe this is the God way to lead us (especially me) to be a strong person and gain my faith more to God.

Thank you, you've gave me lesson learned. Enjoy your flight.. :)

Yesterday, I’m home about 9.20 pm. Feed my body with spaghetti & pudding & finish at 10 pm. Go to my room & let my body rest for a while. Check my blackberry, read other’s status in twitter & facebook. She comes to my room, offers me her shirt, and asks me to try it. I said that I’ll try letter because I’m not take a bath yet. Actually, I’m lazy, tired.
Today, she questions me about her shirt again. My answer is I’ll try later. This is the words was out from her, “Bangke juga nih orang”. Surprisingly, I get those words from her. I don’t know exactly how I feel now. Simple words, but complicated effect for me. She told me that she was excited, but I’m less of it. Maybe she disappointed to me just because of that case. I have no idea what other’s opinion about this simple tragedy.
Just finish this feeling & forget it. The more I thinking about that, the more I feel uncomfortable.

Menanti ajal

Posted by Sofia On Monday, May 16, 2011 0 comments


Setelah kemarin bolos, hari ini gw kembali on-board di kantor. To be honest, tulisan ini belom kelar aja, gw uda pengen nangis, entah kenapa saat ini zona sensitive sedang mengudara. Nulis ditemenin sama Planet Cinta-nya Naif, emang pas banget.
Hari ini dimulai dengan sharing session jam 8 pagi. Banyak banget wawasan tentang HR yang dibahas di sini. Sebelum mulai, tadinya gw memilih untuk gak ikut sesi ini, karena tabungan kerjaan akibat kemarin gak masuk agak lumayan. Tapi, karena “dicariin” makanya gw pun menyeret paksa kursi untuk masuk ke meeting room tempat sesi ini di gelar. Masih ngantri masuk ke meeting room itu, terdengar suara, “loh, Sofia mana?”. Aahh, gw dicariin Big Boss, jadi malu. J Sempet terjadi pembicaraan lah, krn kemarin gw ga masuk, “oh, ternyata Sofi bias sakit juga,”, “ohh, ternyata kemarin Sofi sakit”. Ahh, betapa pedulinya mereka akan kehadiran gw yang gak seberapa ini.
Setelah sharing session berakhir, lanjut ke tabungan kerjaan yang saldo-nya malah makin banyak. Gak berapa lama, meeting ttg KPI kembali akan bergulir. Masuklah gw ke meeting room. Nah, di sini point pentingnya. Team gw mulai membicarakan masalah perpisahan. Yaa, mau ada makan-makan untuk “melepas” kepergian gw & salah seorang temen di unit kita. Sedih iya, tapi agak banget sih. Kalo dibilang seneng, yaa seneng, akhirnya semakin dekat waktu gw untuk melakukan tugas gw sebagai staff yang gak seberapa ini. Ternyata Big Boss (dalam artian harafiah – boss yang badannya berotot / besar) juga merencanakan akan jalan-jalan.
Yak, meeting KPI berakhir pada jam istirahat harus dimulai. Pergilah gw tanpa Bund (sengaja, bukan bunda). Seperti ada yang hilang kalo gak makan siang bareng dia. Yaa belajarlah yaa, ajal sebentar lagi memanggil.  Mau turun lift, ketemu sama idoli (sengaja, bukan idola). Cakep banget, orang Italiano, tapi yaa namanya manusia yaa, ada aja yang kurang oke. Dia beberapa kali ngeliatin gw karena gw & salah seorang teman yang beberapa waktu belakangan “nempel” mulu sama gw agak-agak ribut.
Kemudian, sampailah kami di embesidor. Sepanjang perjalanan makan siang, salah seorang teman yang beberapa waktu belakangan “nempel” mulu sama gw itu bilang, “lu kenapa sih, gak biasa2nya ekspresif begini..” Yah, gw juga gak tau.
Waktu kembali berjalan & jam istirahat pun berakhir. Bekerjalah gw seperti biasa…
Hari ini gw memutuskan untuk pulang agak malam, menuntaskan tabungan yang tertunda, supaya senin bias mengerjakan tugas yang lain. Di tengah-tengah pengerjaan tugas, salah seorang Om meminta gw untuk masuk meeting room. Dengan semangat, gw pun masuk, walaupun mungkin akan dikasi kerjaan. Kalimat pertama yang terlontar adalah “Sof, kamu sama S jadian yaa?”, jiahh, langsunglah gw teriak-teriak, “ga mungkin, mas”. Yaa ngobrol2 sebentarlah kami..
Ajal akan menjemput gw di akhir bulan ini. Gak tau gimana rasanya idup tanpa rutinitas yang cukup monoton. Yaa, perpisahan pasti akan terjadi bagi kita. Memang berat, tapi tetap harus belajar menjalani idup tanpa orang-orang terbaik itu lagi. Prepare yourself, Sof. :(

Idea's of life

Posted by Sofia On Sunday, May 15, 2011 0 comments

As long as I'm life, I always mind that if I sharing my opinion, my problem, or anything that I want to share, is take out my privacy from my self. Maybe others recognize that it's a usual thing to be shared. I don't care with others thought.
I was thinking, sharing equals with looking for justification and I don't want to make my self weaker just because I share my thing.
I want to be a psychologist, funny, if I think like that. But that's the reality of my self. I don't know until when, I would thinking like that.