6 years ago, eventually I accepted him to be my close friend. I knew that it wasn’t an easy condition to go through. I loved him, but there are so many things that I thought would be an obstacle in our relationship then. Actually, until now, I don’t know what love is. But I guess I was in love with him. He is a kind guy, handsome, and cool. He could be my friend, my father, my brother, and of course my man. I was gone through an exceptional relationship. He and I have far age differentiation and we need to work professionally because we are a partner. He asks me to hide this relationship because of those conditions. For me, it’s not a big deal, but time goes by and I think I need to be recognized as his girl. . In my relationship, actually there's no big problem but we have a big differentiation which probably we could never solve and get win-win solution. So I decided to end our great relationship. Our relationship just worked for about 2 years. But I guess, our friendship still working.
Now, situation is different. I missed him already. But I realize, he couldn't be my man again. We have a different way to go through. I just loved him when he closed to me not as a free man. If even we have in a same way, I couldn’t be with him again. I know, everyone has their past, but I think that his past so disturbing to me and I don’t know whether I can deal with that or not. Fortunately, our business has done since I broke up with him. Sometimes, I was trying to get in touch with him. He gives me good responds. But, I couldn’t do it again. I need to move on as soon as possible. I’m not in love again with him, I just missed him. But that feeling is inappropriate again for me.
I deserve to get a better man to be mine and all I need is just keep my eyes open.
